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I talked to Alice about some of the things that Axel and Finn and I talked about. And I asked her WHY she loves me. And she could not answer that question and I realized that maybe this isn't going to work out so I said that. And she goes "Why are you doing this, B?" and kind of runs out of the house looking really upset.

Fucking hell. I'm no good in relationships. As a matter of fact I'm not even so sure I really want to be in one. Because it feels like a whole lot of being leaned on for support and not much actually just being together. It feels like the only time she ever wants anything to do with me is when she's upset about something. So, great -- now I'm your counselor. I don't mind being there for you but for god's sakes, that's not my only use. I thought a relationship was about spending time together and all that kind of stuff and you...spend all your free time with your friends and ignore me most of the day. I'm sure not feeling happy for my first time in a relationship, Alice... maybe you'll see that before I have to hurt you by just straight out telling you that it's not going to work.